Normal People Behavior
Jason has made arrangements to see him again this Friday week. He use to see this particular Doctor’s father, when he was a child and now the son is also a doctor at the same place. He has not seen this doctor as a patent before but the main reason for seeing him is because he is from the home town, & this is what the PTS has done for the 2nd time.
He says Normal People Behavior can be quite strange, at the moment I feel as if I am not known by anyone at all including my family, no-one has spoken to me over the years much, and no-one has listened to me either which has been very frustrating, but I have not been able to do anything about it and AS robs you of certain social skills . When I was young, I said to my parents to see a psychologist so you can speak about me but this was only taken out of context like everything else. However ONE person does know me properly so far which is the (psychologist) I use to see, but he too turned out to be untrustworthy in the up side down world we all live in and found it is even hard to find honest professions to trust also. I find it hard to figure out who to trust most of the time.
I am currently 53 and have never been fully understood with my thinking, as I am very literal, logical and straight forward with other people, I am not delusional in any way what so ever, it is just how I interpret the information I receive. The worlds I live in are as real as yours, maybe not understood but they are definitely real. I do see however, that when I talk about certain topics such as this, many things are simply not understood properly and people will naturally think negatively of me.. and that is how it has been through my entire life. On top of this also I have had a brother (out of control) who has chosen to run me down in the family and with other people throughout my life, however there is not much you can really do about this destructive Typical Normal Behavior that is legal.
This brother of mine is two years younger and has never willingly spoken to me in my entire life, only under forced conditions have I ever been in his company. The reason for this is because he is a typical control freak that has only run me down through my entire family and I have not done anything to him, except for probably making him jealous. I only talk to my father and older brother about basic things, which is all they want to here and I talk to shopkeepers also. I have no friends, on public transport I look out the windows only and carry a walking stick for company and something to hang onto. When I am in public I am vigilant, I have acute awareness and seem to scan everything around me from, buildings, architecture, people, shapes, colors, signs, mechanical and much more, I do this intuitively until I notice what I am doing and how interested I am in doing it. Life to me is full of observations, surprise and intrigue with what the typical normal person does, compared to myself and there is a long list of things I simply do not do!
I have studied many topics over the years including the main, most important, greatest, biggest, best and most noted for things in the world, countries, cities, main places ect. I like areas of psychology, maths, art and have built an internet marketing business over the past 4 years that I now market to a world wide audience. I am interested in Quantum mechanics, space propulsion, crop circles, et’s and the universe in general, however I do not talk to anyone about these things because no-one has this interest and no-one wants to know this intellect anyway. Anything out of the normal for most people is simply to hard to understand and a negative view is always adopted to settle one’s own security.
I have this specific awareness of people, and see them in various prehistoric forms relating to primates. I see certain people only and clearly as the descendants of gorillas, chimps, gibbons, orangutans, baboons and sometimes a mixture of these animals in people. I see the primitive human in many people but I do not look out for this, it is just something I notice intuitively and it really amazes me sometimes. With some people I am absolutely astounded and I try to observe these people for as long as I can while they are not looking. It is not something I imagine either, I am just aware or who the primates are and can relate these primates to the faces, posture and behavior of different people. The nationality of the person does not matter, it’s the features and behavior that catches my attention and further proves true insight into our hi-bread civilization.
My family use to say this all the time, “David we do not want to know, we are not interested in you and this is all too much”. Initially my family also want to avoid the issue about me having AS, because it makes out as if they have been negligent in their care over the years, however personally I do not care and not interested in that now even though there has been many problems over time. No-one has understood why but the only thing I am looking for in life now, is proper help in life which involves understanding and a permanent partner that can assist me just the same as any other partner would do for anyone else. I am not looking for anything extraterrestrial I hope that would be too much to ask for, I am only interested in someone ab-normal enough to understand me properly and a nice person capable of blending with me.
My thinking is different to typical thinking, where many things can appear to be upside down, opposite or incorrect compared to what other people might think. This is due to how I process the information I receive, and how I put it out through verbal communication. I think this is why I am not understood the way I should be, and this is how I have confused other people at work and also home for many years. The diagnosis came about 2 years after loosing my mind, which was the result of trying to live, or being forced to live a normal life with this difference and without a diagnosis. This had not work for me at all and had caused a lot of problems in my life before I had lost my mind. My mind simply overloaded with activity and stress and I basically collapsed on the ground at the time. This was all due to my beautiful AS mind and the stupid fuck head minds that I use to work with every day in the work place. Once again it is typical Normal People Behavior that happens all the time every single day.
This happens to me when there is stress, problems and confusion with people and politics in the work place. It swirls around and I do not know what goes on behind my back but I always end up being the cause for what it is. I never fully understand what is going on behind my back, and is what can happen. The last episode of stupidity that occurred at the university that I attended, nearly put me in jail and could have ruined my life completely. At the moment I am very cautious of this Normal People Behavior due to good reasons forced upon me, and about the future. I do not have any other mental issues apart from anxiety, I am clear thinking and feel great by myself, but when other people come into the picture, everything seems to change, fall apart, look up side down or reversed in some stupid way that does not suit me. It was no wonder I had lost my clear thinking straight mind due to battling with the bent minds of the typically Normal People Behavior. Lol
I live on my own at the moment, I have a girl friend and I do have friends, however I do find it hard to control my feelings of security when outside the house. I have a family but they have never understood me up until now so they say, however they have only been negative towards me over the years. This negativity has been around me all my life without the understanding or support I have needed, and anyone else would have needed this too. My life at the moment is (up side down) and this is only due to the stupid Normal People Behavior on autopilot full of lies, denial, deceit, back stabbing, hiding behind the curtains of the company as cowards do and the pathetic list goes on. These so called professionals not only claim the label, but demand to be looked upon as some kind of superior humans, however once again the BS and delusions surrounding the typically normal can be an overwhelming joke most of the time.. God bless you and hail Satan for his New World Order and the eternal prosperity he will deliver.
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